I already have enough

Today I'm just grateful. That's it. 

Grateful I have a happy, healthy, adorable 19-month old daughter.

Grateful I have a happy, helpful-beyond-words, loving husband.

Grateful we're happy together. Grateful we have each other. 

I'm so grateful for my family. 

For my little life I often complain about. 

My life I keep wanting more from. 

In reality I don't need anything else. I don't need anymore money, a newer car, a nice big brand new home, another baby (not right now)...I just WANT them all. 

And that's selfish, because I already have so much. 

A roof over my head.

Food to eat. 

Clothes to wear.

A car to drive.

A husband to cuddle with.

A daughter to giggle with and love on whenever I want.

A healthy body.

The ability to stay home and be a mommy, where I'm really needed.

I am so lucky. 

Throughout all of my searches for new homes, new cars, new babies. I'm finally starting to come to terms with what is important to me and what I want for my family.
This is what I've learned.

I already have enough.

I have everything I need.

It is possible to live within your means and be perfectly happy.

And when it comes to money or relationships...I choose relationships. 

Every

Single 

Time

Which means that after I'm done with school I won't be working.

I want to be home, with my family.
To build strong relationships with my kids and my husband.

Because let's face it--the mom is the glue that holds the whole house together. 

And maybe someday I'll want to go back to work.
Maybe when my kids are all past preschool ages.

But not now.

Not when they're so young, not when they grow up so fast, not when they need me so much. 

This means we'll buy a home that is less of our dream home and more of a functional one, but at least we'll have one. At least we'll have each other. 

It's funny. Before Braelyn came along I never, ever thought about being a stay-at-home mom. I was never thinking about jobs that would still allow me to be at available for my family, I just didn't think it would be an issue for me to leave my kids with someone else. But oh how I've changed my mind. Thank you little miss B, for putting things into perspective for me and for making me realize what's important in life...you.